for me nov 7,8,9

**Errrmmm...sorry you guys this post was something I wrote 2 years ago and I left it as a draft until now...I thought that if I posted it it would place itself where it was supposed to 2 years ago instead it's the latest blog...haha...so yeah it probably won't make sense to you =P...I cant hide the post and don't want to delete it sooo...yeah...

Remember my post Yesterday? Remember the last 5 paragraphs? I also just remembered the 3 prayer requests I made.

1. I won't regret going on the retreat.
2. I can open up myself and be myself in the retreat.
3. That I can know where I really stand in my relationship with God.

I even wrote " Maybe nubmer 3 won't be answered that weekend..."

God never ceases to amaze me - he answered numbers 1, 2...and 3.

It was an, and I get these words from thesaurus.com, awesome, awe-inspiring, breathtaking, beautiful weekend. Still, there are no words to really desxribe it =P

I got to make lots of new friends. And through them I realized that...I have an accent of my own! Isn't that cool? 55555.

And through the worship I have come to realize some things that I never really realized before: I always thought that I was meant to be in Thailand. But as you know I'm going to be in Singapore. I was so burdened with my fears about leaving this place and the future to be with Bayu and his caling to pastor in Singapore. But I now know and I now accept that it's not only Bayu's calling in Singapore...but...it is ALSO my calling.

I mean God has called me to marry Bayu because He believes in us and knows that we can be a strong team for this world. I'm telling myself " Hello! God believes in you! The God of the universe believes in you!! He's leading you!" And I accept that calling whole heartedly. Now there is this certain calm, peace and happiness in me. I will go where He leads and I will be happy there.

So Mom, Dad, Hazel don't worry too be happy =) God will still bless us as a familiy who has always been so close. We might not know how we can make it being "apart" but God will take care of it I'm sure.

Well, the weekend went by all too fast but with memories to last forever. You can see some pictures on fb that some of my friends posted up. I wasn't able to take much at all. So hard with just a camera phone.

Another hi-light was the NO TALENT SHOW we had. I laughed a lot that weekend but that night of the show it was insane. Funny mak mak. Sud yod. You can find some videos of that on fb too.

Merry Christmas Eve!

Hi everybody! How are you? I haven't done a proper blog in so long!...feels long anyway...I'm still waiting for the photos from the official photographers then I can really blog about my wedding day. Well...I'm still thinking about the wedding day and smiling about it...I couldn't have asked for a more perfect day. It indeed is the best day of my life. I had wonderful friends and family who helped make the day the way it was. I was happy to see my high school friends. I felt so special, blessed and I've never experienced so many miracles in one day. I feel as if Jesus was there doing his miracles like changing water into wine. Hahha. Actually it wasn't just a wonderful day. It was a wonderful weekend. Bayu met up with his MC friends, we went to the sunflower field and took pictures, the rehearsal dinner and rehearsal went well. I was expecting, like other couples I've seen, to fight and cry and be stressed. But instead I had a great rehearsal and one thing good about having rehearsals is that we all cried on that evening but not on the wedding day. I loved it! Once I get the pictures I'd love to relive that day and get into details..starting from when we left to MC on friday all the way to the end of the weekend. I can't thank all of you enough for your prayers and support.

It's Christmas eve now. At home there's lots of food on the table. I love celebrating...

=) =) =)

You guys...the countdown is over. I am now married. I am now a wife..I am now...umm...that's all =P ...it was really great you guys...I will post pictures...I will tell you about the wedding from my point of view...soon!! hahaha...right now I'm just letting it all sink in a relishing the unforgettable precious moments of the wedding =)

I'm getting married this weekend!!!

Hello?? Hello??

I've made my what to bring to MC list. All's left is to pack all the stuff and head off to MC tomorrow. So this will be my last post for this weekend. I guess you'll hear from me next weekend after all the excitement and stress of the wedding has come and g one.

I've done most of what I need to already. Now is just the uncontrollable aspect of the whole thing which I just have to have faith will work out. The main concern right now is the number of people coming. So far who have rsvpd are more than I expected and more than what we told the caterer. So please pray that some how all will go well...(yes pray some people change their mind to come! hahahaha).

Tonight my cousin will come and I'll pick her up at the airport. Bayu's mom is cooking Indo food right now...it smells so good. I'm going to try to call his parents mom and dad in his language. Kinda strange and awkward though LoL.

Oh yes, and right now I'm waiting for Hazel so that we can head off to do our manicure and pedicure with Jyn too. It's already Thursday!...the end of Thursday. My parents just came with the picture that we will put at the entrance...you know those big ones with the pic of th couple?...yeah...I have one with Bayu!!!! EEEEEEE...hehheeh...it's so nice...

Okay I'm going to go stare and admire it right now.

Errands

4 days and some hours left. This is what my schedule for this week looks like...(roughly)...

Tuesday
-Check up at Samitivej (check)
-Buy Candy Cane for Hazel (check)
-Eat at home (check)
-Blow dry hair (check)
-Makeup Trial (Cancelled)
-Pick up Bayu's Suit (Check)
-Pack Candies (Tomorrow!)

Wednesday
-Visit Charinel
-Platinum
-Picture Taking Session
-Bayu's party
-Thank You gifts

Thursday
-Manicure,pedicure
-Pick up passport

Things left to buy or do:
-Flower girl dress
-Ellen's dress
-DVD Karaoke
-Pink bags
-Jelly beans??
-Box for rings
-TQ gifts
-Housing
-Vans
-Program
-Final list of things that I need to bring from BKK to MC
-Photograph list
-RSVPs

Today on our way to pick up Bayu's suit we ate at this Korean restaurant between NaNa and Asok BTS station. There was soooooooo much food plus a drink each and it cost us only 620 baht. We had so much left over cuz we were stuffed. What we ordered could've fed 4-5 ppl...next time..next time...It was yummmmmmyyy...

The good thing about having a job and money is that now we can adventure out and eat where we haven't tried yet and which looks interesting! =)
Kimichi Stew

Peace Out

I picked Bayu up today with my parents and Hazel. I was happy to see him and his parents too. Bayu and I rode home in 1 taxi and on the way there I told him about how I was feeling. He listened and we talked about it so I feel good about that.

Once we got home we ate food that my mom and auntie prepared. We relaxed, chatted and watched heroes. After that Hazel, Bayu and I went to Ambassador Hotel at Nana to make Bayu's suite. Next, we went to MBK and bought Bayu's shoes, tie, sandals, unders and sandals. I also bought a yummy Thai dessert that is only sold and tastes that good there at MBK.

Once we got home Bayu met but with Ben and Ben and then Dolly and Jyn and Laura came over to my house and we prepared the souveneir packages. It was fun to be together and to see Jyn again. I can feel the wedding festivities coming on. There is a glimpse of hope that this Sunday could be a happy day for me after all. We were laughing that people might misunderstand that the wedding is a funeral because there'll be so many of us crying! Haha.

See! One negative blog and now a happy blog. Well, you guys know more about me and my mood swings now. Thanks for your support and understanding though. I couldn't just go to sleep and leave today with that last post on my blog.

So yes, you guys, all is well with my soul.

Questions & Answers that come later

This morning I woke up around 5.30ish because and got up to the toilet at around 6ish. That's what I usually do during my normal day of work. But since Friday was the last day of work I'm free from work until God gives me one.

I thought I'd stay awake but I went back to bed and fell asleep until 8. I got up went on fb, read my emails and your guys's blogs. I got sleepy and went back to sleep and got up just now at around 10.30ish.

Bayu and his parents are arriving at around 2pm. Hazel will drive there but she can leave work at 2.30. I've been trying to do anything to let time pass by quickly until 2 comes. I wanna see him. It's been 4months since we last saw each other and I just want to lay eyes on the man I'm going to marry and spend the rest of my life with. I just want to be reminded about why I'm getting married and making some drastic changes in my life.

I've still got lots of stuff to do. In a way I'm glad my wedding preparation didn't come so easily so that I won't take it for granted and it will be really precious to me. I can't imagine having to prepare for a wedding over again. I'd just die. It's too much work and stress! Haha.

Anyways, I must confess that lately when people ask me how I feel that my wedding is so close or that they are excited for me...well, I feel like they are even more excited than I am! Right now I'm not even thinking about the wedding day. I'm actually thinking about the day I'll be leaving, which if everything goes according to plan, would be next Friday. I'm thinking how can I enjoy my day when I'll be leaving?...I know, so negative of me.

Am I ready to leave? Am I ready to be away from my family whom I am so close with when I could actually have chosen to be with them even a few more years? I can leave Thailand, I can leave my job and my students and the church and all the people I know but thinking about leaving my family is just the hardest thing for me.

Sonya told me on Sunday before she left the Renie told her that his wedding day was the happiest day of his life. Will my wedding day be the happiest day of my life??? I just feel so bad having these thoughts and feelings so close to my wedding day.

Another thing is that these pills that the doctor gave me for birth control hasn't affected my weight or improved my pimples but I think it has made my emotions go down into the depression zone. I feel like my students at work who need medication which helps them to actually like somebody they hated when they weren't on that medication!

What else can I let loose on this post about how I'm feeling?
Am I really ready?
Will I be a good wife?

P.S. With my emotions going up and down... don't be surprised if my next post is all about how excited I am and how sure I am about the decisions I've made. =)

I feel so bipolar. I really feel for my students. I hope I get a job in special education in Singapore.

Pink&Black

I prayed: God please give me a sign, any sign, that you still want me to go through with everything...

Who would've thought it would come in the form of...

Girlfriends!

P.S. Dolly was taking the picture.

Tossing & Turning

This is me...the bride-to-be one week before her wedding:

It's my 2nd night in a row to have butterflies in my stomach. I have a feeling this is going to go on every night until...who knows when!

I had dreams that we lost things during the wedding, we couldn't get things done on time and someone kept on reminding me over and over all the things that I haven't done yet!

The butterflies are so bad that I need to go to the toilet.

I lay awake missing my students, thinking about my sis-in-laws canceled flight (Thai Air Asia sux and so does the PAD), I realize this is my last Sabbath in Bangkok (if I do get my passport before the 26th), I can't help thinking about how my life will change.

I have to sit up to try to get rid of the butterflies.

Then I remind myself of that "revelation" I had where I knew God was telling me that this is my calling. I have chosen this path and I just need to trust in God. Believe that he can see what I can't see.

So I worship through youtube. Yes, remember that blog where I realized that those words I don't know what to say, those words that I can't seem to express to God...well, their all in song. I just click worship songs and listen to them. I let those words sink in and I even imagine I'm worshiping at NS. =) I've listened to Breath of Heaven, Trading My Sorrows and now I'm listening to God of Wonders.

In moments like these there is no one better to turn to than God.

+++Tonight is my bachelorette. I'm going to SML. I hope I meet my childhood friend today(Shane). Jyn is coming tomorrow.

November 29

It's no longer a matter of months.
It is now only a matter of weeks.
It is a matter of 23 days.

I have 2 weeks of work left.
This coming week and then the next week.
Which means that the week after is the last week before the BIG DAY!

I'm excited.
I'm nervous.
I'm overwhelmed.

I want to think about it.
I want to forget about it.

I'm looking forward to meeting Bayu.
I'm having a good time spending time with my family - Tonight we went to eat in a Thai restaurant and walk around at J Avenue. The cool weather made it a perfect evening.

Bridal Facial.

I just had a facial. It was sooo goood. I took a pictures but it's too ugly.


I'm having 2 more sessions of facials plus body scrub, manicure, pedicure, etc. etc.

They shall help my days to pass by quickly.

I went to my first concert last night and my first facial today.

To Do-Dates and Lists

47 - Days until Dec.21
15 - Bayu arrives Dec.
13 - Dec. Bachelorette party
20- Dec. Rehearsal

Why am I doing this backwards??

12 - Nov. Hair makeover
13 - Nov. Pick up my Dress
16 - Nov. Bobay Tower for flower girls dresses.
23 - Dec. Fly to Singapore (I won't say leave Thailand).

Get marriage certificate from Tabuang.
Make new passport with changed name.
Start packing making a list of things to bring that can't find there.
Ask for letter of recommendation from work.
Finalize materials that need to be in or out of the church.
Transportation.
Contact Daron about the music and trumpet.
Confirm guestlist.

I think there's more...there definitely is more!

=)

Up,Down,Up,Down

You guys, I haven't been writing much although I have some pictures to put up of work and some food and friends. I'll probably put them up after I accumulate more pictures of the Newsong retreat that I'll be attending this weekend. =)

Well, as you all might NOT notice ; ) it's November...and I am actually at the point where when people ask when I'm getting married my answer is - NEXT MONTH>>>

Oh gosh. I just want to warn/apologize/plead to you all to please bear with me. My posts will most likely be like my mind and mood lately. One moment I'm ecstatic about the wedding and getting married and the next post I'll be stressed and depressed about having this whole new future and life.

So please bear with me if these two topics are all I can talk about- Because frankly that's what's on my mind almost 24/7. Thanks for your care and understanding and any comments will be appreciated =).

I really salute all those women or men out there (Cathy this includes you!) who dare to face and go through with major steps and changes in their lives.

Mishu

I miss Bayu!

Chan kidtueng Bayu!

Saya rindu Bayu!

It's a bitter sweet moment in my life =)

As you've read in my previous posts, I'm going to miss Thailand and everything and everyone in it.

But at the same time...







I'm looking forward to start a new adventure and a new life with Bayu!
New church.
New food.
New place.
New home.
New friends.
New work.
New malls.
New address.
New phone number.
New surname.
New time zone.


I won't have to miss Bayu the way I'm missing him right now!

I can be there for him during good times and bad times - in person, not through long distance phone calls, gmail or Skype!

I'm excited to join him in his pastoral ministry. To be able to support him and to meet and love the people he visits and works with.

I'm also looking forward to eating his food and cooking for him =D

We'll have each other.

There really IS much to look forward to.

Bridal Hysteria - Eeeeek!

I started giving out my first invitations at work today. I'm happy that alot of them said it was cute! Hahaha. Yay. Thanks Dolly and Hazel for helping me choose it...despite that one major error that nobody else except us knows about ;)

I can't believe tomorrow is the last day of October. And then on Saturday it's going to be November!

You guys!!! November is THE MONTH BEFORE December!!! O.M.G.

O.M.G.

I think I'm hyperventilating.

I'm getting paranoid that I'm forgetting to plan something or do something or forget some important detail that needs to be prepared for the wedding....

Okay...breath in....breath out...breath in...breath out...

I'm so EXCITED!

I'm Nervous.

I'm EXCITED!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lugubrious News

Look up lugubrious to see what it means. Well, maybe you don't need to if you don't know what it means. After reading this post you'll understand.

Well, obviously we are approaching the end of the month. The end of the months comes salary =) and bills =(.

Okay, let me get to the point. The points is. My wedding is less than 2 months away and I have calculated the budget and lets just say we're on a very tight budget right now. You see Bayu and I have no sponsors for our wedding therefore we are coming up with the ka-chings ourselves.

This means that in the month of November, the last "full" month before the wedding, I'll only have enough for the Newsong retreat and after that its save, Save, SAve, SAVe, SAVE. I'm sorry you all but this means not eating out in glorious places such as Sugaroma or Coffe Beans, or Sunrise Tacos. It also means no shopping (for myself but yes for wedding stuff) or spur-of-the moment outings.

Sorry to you, sorry to me but that's what its going to have to be like. Please help me okay!

Thanks for your understanding and cooperation.

I think we can still have fun without spending money luxuriously right? Right?! Hehe just trying to comfort myself.

I know God will provide but of course I gotta help Him too right? Teamwork.

Thanks you guys 'n girls.

Sweet Sweat

Ahhhhh....

Hazel and Dolly have been inviting me to go play basketball at EIS with them for weeks. The teachers there get together on Thursdays and play a fun game. I finally dragged my lazy a** to the court. People came like really late but eventually we had around 15 people and we divided into 2 teams with subs. I played for like the first 10 or 15 minutes. *Phew* I haven't played in years! But I still managed to do a 3 pointer and a layup. At least for me it's like riding a bicycle - once you know how you can do it. But of course I was so unfit. It felt so good though to feel the heat permeating from my body and the sweat oozing out of my pores and dripping down my face and neck. I need to do this more - my body loves it! ...I'm just such a lazy person...aargghh. I took a pic of us playing bbal but I accidentally deleted it >_<. I have one of just me sweating but it's too beautiful to post up..hihii... Ahhhhh.... P.S. After we got back Hazel started cutting the pictures for the invitations. I'm really making use of my maid of honor!

Where do I start?

Well, I've been kinda sick since Wednesday. And Haven't been able to blog much of what pulls at my heartstrings =)

Well instead of words just look at the pictures...I'm sure pictures will speak louder than my words.

Monday - This is what happened to my phone.

On Wednesday I started feeling sick at 3 pm. I thought it was my shoulders so i went to get a Thai massage at Magnolia Spa for an hour. It was sooooo goooooood. So my shoulders were fine but my stomach wasn't. So it was the stomach flu. I'm much better now and I'm so thankful for my dear mum and dad who massaged me and cooked porrige for me and prayed for me.

Here's my pretty mum!
I was able to go to work yesterday. I was also able to buy my new phone! That's why there's all these pictures! Yay for me =D

This is the first pic taken on my phone. In other words the picture that devirginized my phone! It's also my wall paper right now.
Oh yeah and I was able to accomplish some wedding plans. My plans are going really well so far. I'm very happy about having a Heavenly Wedding Coordinator.

That's the stack of invitations!
So please give me your mailing address or email address!

Invitations. Check.

After work I went with Hazel and Dolly to order the wedding invitations.
So that's done with. Can pick it up in two days.
Took a while to pick the perfect card!
(It's not in this pic though).


After that we went to Jusco. There was a sale of vegetarian food and we came back home and ate! That's why Dolly says on facebook she hates friends that eat...Hahaha.

The one in the center in the round plastic container is the vegetarian version of anchovies. It's made from mushrooms. Bayu would love it for sure.