The last two days and goodbye (again...)

I got to spend time with Kessarin.  She came over and ate with me.  After my bout of morning sickness that first 3 months my appetite came back with a vengeance!

Enjoying ice cream and cupcakes from yesterday's baby shower.

A slice of pumpkin pie!

I was craving this pumpkin pie for forever!

After that "snacking"  we went for a massage.  The massage was at health land.  I got the special massage for pregnancy.  It was ok.  I write this now 2 months later and I need another massage!  My back aches!

6 months preggers.  My sister will Always by my best friend no matter what.  I love her to pieces.

Enjoying every moment before leaving at night.

We had breakfast at 24 owls then we went to central world to look for some baby stuff.  I already started tearing when we were shopping at H & M!  Pregnancy makes me extra emo!

And yet again it was time to say goodbye.  I had the greatest few days of my life!  It's been almost 5 years since I've lived away from my family but I always, always cry when we leave each other.  I'm really close to my family and am such a family person.  This time it was also a different kind of goodbye.  Because the next time we meet there will be a little one.  I won't just a daughter and sister but also a mother.  A new chapter in life.  

June Bkk Trip - Time to say goodbye :'(

It's been a long while that I've stayed for this long back home since moving to Singapore.  I've been away almost 5 years but it still is so hard to say goodbye.  This time was different.  We all knew that the next time we would see each other Bayu and I would be parents.  Parents!  Can you believe it? Haha.  Of course before we left we had to shop and stock up with some stuff.  And spend the last minutes with friends and family.

Smile Bayu.  Most of this stuff is yours.  Hehe.

My favorite!  Milk tablets.

Yes.  Bringing Thai durian back to Singapore.

Packed up and ready to go.

Thanks for seeing me off Kess.  Here I just told her the good news!

Told cat the good news too. And told joy on facetime.  Jyn I told her on my birthday :D

Good bye Bangkok.

Hi again Singapore.

Rereading Kessarin's birthday gift to me when I arrived back.

Oh How True!

Something I found on Facebook:

For all those born in 70's & 80's!

We are the last generation that learnt to play in the street, we are the first who've played video games, see cartoons in color and went to amusement parks.  We were the last to record songs of the radio on cassettes and we are the pioneers of walkmans and chatrooms... We learned how to program the VCR before anyone else, play with the Atari, Super......Nintendo and believed that the Internet would be a free world all on a 56kbit modem. Traveled in cars without seat belts or air-bags & lived without cellphones. Rode our bicycles down the road without brakes.  We never had phones but still kept in touch.  We did not have Play stations, 99 television stations, flat screens, surround sound, mp3s, iPods, computers and broadband...

but nevertheless we had a GREAT time.

Of Course!

Last night Bayu told me that he will be coming to Thailand on December 15 and leaving back to Singapore on December 23. The Mission was kind enough to grant him his leave even though hasn't worked there for a year yet.

So basically, December 23 is the date that I will be leaving Thailand. I knew I'd be leaving but I didn't know exactly when. When I finally found out that it would be December 23 it finally struck me that I'm leaving...really really leaving!!

The night before I also had a dream that it was the wedding day and after the wedding I was so sad because everyone in my dream was saying goodnight and it's time to go to bed now and in the dream I realized that I won't be sleeping with Hazel anymore I'll be sleeping with someone else! And I was crying and crying in my dream that when I woke up I felt depressed! Haha. It's just because Hazel and I are really close sisters and we've shared the same room and same bed and sometimes the same pillow for all our lives. We even have this tradition that we always hold hands while sleeping even until this day.

So yes the fact that I finally found out when I would be leaving actually got me depressed last night. And I was like "oh man I'm not going to enjoy this Sabbath day for sure. I was looking forward to SML and Newsong but now I'll probably just be depressed!"

I didn't just lie in bed and do nothing though. I got up and went to SML and to Newsong and I told myself that I'll go and hopefully God can still speak to me despite me thinking that today will not be a good day.

Well, now it's 11. 40 Pm on Saturday. SML and Newsong has come and gone but my feeling of misery from this morning is gone like the morning mist. And now my heart is once again filled with God's love and reassurance which brings happiness along with it. What was I thinking? OF COURSE God won't just leave me alone and let me be miserable. Thanks God. I love you!

My First Brick

So I went to www.bigwhitewall.com

I created and posted my first brick. It's kind of like the graffiti wall on facebook but with more stuff we can play around with.
I haven't even edited my profile or familiarized my way around yet.
But in less than 24 hours I already got 2 responses from total strangers but they gave such encouraging messages to me.

Here's my first brick on my white wall.

This is my brick story:

I'm getting married this December.

I'll be moving with my future husband to another country.

I'm excited to start a new life with him. I also look forward to what my future might hold.

But amidst those happy thoughts I can't help but realize that it also means that it will mean leaving the country I've lived in my whole life and the family that I love so much.

The following are the responses I received.

• Today @ 06:33 roze said

  

  This is a bittersweet time for you. I have moved abroad for marriage and it is not easy to be so far from the family and friends that you love. Are there going to be others in your new country that you have already met and feel comfortable with? And have you got some of your family coming to visit you early next year - it does help. Rxx

• Today @ 09:02 ant said

  

  Hi lagrace625 - welcome to the Wall - you are very brave moving to another country - Hopefully you will still be able to return to visit with your friends and family and at least with our communications systems like skype and email and you will be able to keep in touch quite easily and see your family on the screen.

  But even this - as good as it is - isn't quite the same as getting that hug from family and friends that you will used to. thinking of you ant x

Bye-Bye Samsung

I was riding my bicycle to the gate of the compound this morning.
Midway, on the rocky road, I heard some "poppin" sound.
I thought I ran over a toad and didn't look back ( I just ate my breakfast!).
I parked the bike and walked out.
I was almost at the pak soi (entrance of the soi) when I realized my phone wasn't in my pocket.
I thought I left it at home.
Then...it dawned on me...That "popping" sound must've been my phone slipping out of my pocket!!!!
I quickly ran back...and there laying peacefully on the rocky road was my phone. Face down.
*sigh of relief* I picked it up.
Tadaaa...the screen was totally broken. It was scratched.
It was a hard fall and I have this gut feeling a few cars had run over it before I could rescue it.

So...bye bye phone...hello new phone...
That's my 3rd phone.
phone #1 Misplaced and stolen (Women's toilet-The Mall).
Phone #2 Gave to dad and Haze bought me a new phone.
Phone #3 My most precious phone - Took a fall and got run over.

And that was how my morning started!

Flooded Thoughts

It rained really hard last night and at lunch time too.
This is the result of it all at home:

Before work.

After work.

In the canteen at lunch time. Notice the waterfall?

Anyways, walking the compound I lived in was pretty flooded. It reminded me so much of my childhood days. I used to LOVE it when it got flooded. I'd put on my boots..or not at all..and just run around in the muddy, dirty, worm/snake/frogs/fish- infested waters and have the time of my life.

But today just passing a puddle made me go "EEWWWWWW WORMS!!"
Puh! Grownups...just can't have fun huh? Where are those carefree , no fear days?

And talking about grownups...I also realized that sure payment comes with the job...but with salary comes bills too!! Ahhhhh....Oh well...still loving the life!...but not the worms.

Toe-nailed Thoughts

I was in class today when I looked down and saw my toenails.
They needed trimming (or whatever the words is when you cut your nails).
But this thought came to my mind instead:

"How many more times will I be cutting my nails...here in Thailand?"

Strange I know, but hey, all sorts of thoughts come to mind when one realizes that there's only around 11 weeks left before I leave this place.