New Year.
New country.
New home.
New husband (no old husband..hehe).
New, new, new....
New life.
I'm still me but I've decided to do a makeover on my blog. I haven't had the "heartstrings" to write any posts lately so maybe, hopefully, after the makeover of my blog I can find that inner inspiration to post again.
My life may not be as exciting as yours but I do have some little joys/frowns that happen in my life...Put them all together and they make a glittery, glowing, shiny, colourful life of mine.It's sharing time!
31 December 2008
28 December 2008
Goodbye
You guys, I'm leaving to Singapore today.
I don't want to say much because I want my makeup to stay on my face =)
Just wanted to write a post before things get too busy.
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I'll be back here when I'm settled and have access to internet in Singapore.
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You guys...I"m so sad...
I don't want to say much because I want my makeup to stay on my face =)
Just wanted to write a post before things get too busy.
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I'll be back here when I'm settled and have access to internet in Singapore.
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You guys...I"m so sad...
26 December 2008
Today
I got back late last night playing with the sparklers with the "kids" as you see in RJ's blog.
We woke up really early to go to the King's Park to walk around and take pictures with Richmond's parents, Bayu and my family. We stayed there until 1 pm.
We came back home and at 2 Bayu, my family and I headed to Platinum. I was soooooo sleepy and drowsy but once in Platinum I came back to life and forgot my sleepiness and tiredness =P
We did some shopping and some eating for 3 hours. I bought some tops I could wear to work and some polo shirts for Bayu as well. Hazel but lots of pretty dresses.
After that we went to The Mall Ram and did more shopping. I bought the nestle Cha yen and Mama tomyum condensed soup noodles to bring to Singapore.
Then we went to my cousin's house who had some emergency problem.
When we got home at 10 I put the stuff I bought into our bags. Downstairs of my house there are like 5 boxes for shipping and 3 suitcases that Bayu and I will bring this Sunday.
Hazel and I were supposed to meet up with Jyn and Joy and catch up and hangout before we're "separated"...but well...we weren't able to =(
I hope tomorrow I can hang out and catch up with them.
I'm helping Dolly with song service for SML and Bayu will be doing the talk.
For lunch we're eating noodles at my aunts house.
So Saturday evening and night is still not planned.
I can't believe it! Tomorrow is my last night here...Sunday night I'll be at my home with Bayu in Singapore....should I *screech! or *sigh...? LoL
Good night you guys.
P.S. I'm supposedly getting the official pictures tomorrow! *fingers crossed.
We woke up really early to go to the King's Park to walk around and take pictures with Richmond's parents, Bayu and my family. We stayed there until 1 pm.
We came back home and at 2 Bayu, my family and I headed to Platinum. I was soooooo sleepy and drowsy but once in Platinum I came back to life and forgot my sleepiness and tiredness =P
We did some shopping and some eating for 3 hours. I bought some tops I could wear to work and some polo shirts for Bayu as well. Hazel but lots of pretty dresses.
After that we went to The Mall Ram and did more shopping. I bought the nestle Cha yen and Mama tomyum condensed soup noodles to bring to Singapore.
Then we went to my cousin's house who had some emergency problem.
When we got home at 10 I put the stuff I bought into our bags. Downstairs of my house there are like 5 boxes for shipping and 3 suitcases that Bayu and I will bring this Sunday.
Hazel and I were supposed to meet up with Jyn and Joy and catch up and hangout before we're "separated"...but well...we weren't able to =(
I hope tomorrow I can hang out and catch up with them.
I'm helping Dolly with song service for SML and Bayu will be doing the talk.
For lunch we're eating noodles at my aunts house.
So Saturday evening and night is still not planned.
I can't believe it! Tomorrow is my last night here...Sunday night I'll be at my home with Bayu in Singapore....should I *screech! or *sigh...? LoL
Good night you guys.
P.S. I'm supposedly getting the official pictures tomorrow! *fingers crossed.
25 December 2008
RJ!!
I was sleeping in this morning when I heard the piano in the other house playing...it's so nice to have RJ back!...Just like before...RJ coming over to eat, watch movies, chat, and laugh about the crazy chick flick movies. Hahaha. This evening there was a bonus and I hear RJ singing too! Hahahahha....
24 December 2008
Merry Christmas Eve!
Hi everybody! How are you? I haven't done a proper blog in so long!...feels long anyway...I'm still waiting for the photos from the official photographers then I can really blog about my wedding day. Well...I'm still thinking about the wedding day and smiling about it...I couldn't have asked for a more perfect day. It indeed is the best day of my life. I had wonderful friends and family who helped make the day the way it was. I was happy to see my high school friends. I felt so special, blessed and I've never experienced so many miracles in one day. I feel as if Jesus was there doing his miracles like changing water into wine. Hahha. Actually it wasn't just a wonderful day. It was a wonderful weekend. Bayu met up with his MC friends, we went to the sunflower field and took pictures, the rehearsal dinner and rehearsal went well. I was expecting, like other couples I've seen, to fight and cry and be stressed. But instead I had a great rehearsal and one thing good about having rehearsals is that we all cried on that evening but not on the wedding day. I loved it! Once I get the pictures I'd love to relive that day and get into details..starting from when we left to MC on friday all the way to the end of the weekend. I can't thank all of you enough for your prayers and support.
It's Christmas eve now. At home there's lots of food on the table. I love celebrating...
It's Christmas eve now. At home there's lots of food on the table. I love celebrating...
22 December 2008
=) =) =)
You guys...the countdown is over. I am now married. I am now a wife..I am now...umm...that's all =P ...it was really great you guys...I will post pictures...I will tell you about the wedding from my point of view...soon!! hahaha...right now I'm just letting it all sink in a relishing the unforgettable precious moments of the wedding =)
19 December 2008
18 December 2008
Hello?? Hello??
I've made my what to bring to MC list. All's left is to pack all the stuff and head off to MC tomorrow. So this will be my last post for this weekend. I guess you'll hear from me next weekend after all the excitement and stress of the wedding has come and g one.
I've done most of what I need to already. Now is just the uncontrollable aspect of the whole thing which I just have to have faith will work out. The main concern right now is the number of people coming. So far who have rsvpd are more than I expected and more than what we told the caterer. So please pray that some how all will go well...(yes pray some people change their mind to come! hahahaha).
Tonight my cousin will come and I'll pick her up at the airport. Bayu's mom is cooking Indo food right now...it smells so good. I'm going to try to call his parents mom and dad in his language. Kinda strange and awkward though LoL.
Oh yes, and right now I'm waiting for Hazel so that we can head off to do our manicure and pedicure with Jyn too. It's already Thursday!...the end of Thursday. My parents just came with the picture that we will put at the entrance...you know those big ones with the pic of th couple?...yeah...I have one with Bayu!!!! EEEEEEE...hehheeh...it's so nice...
Okay I'm going to go stare and admire it right now.
I've done most of what I need to already. Now is just the uncontrollable aspect of the whole thing which I just have to have faith will work out. The main concern right now is the number of people coming. So far who have rsvpd are more than I expected and more than what we told the caterer. So please pray that some how all will go well...(yes pray some people change their mind to come! hahahaha).
Tonight my cousin will come and I'll pick her up at the airport. Bayu's mom is cooking Indo food right now...it smells so good. I'm going to try to call his parents mom and dad in his language. Kinda strange and awkward though LoL.
Oh yes, and right now I'm waiting for Hazel so that we can head off to do our manicure and pedicure with Jyn too. It's already Thursday!...the end of Thursday. My parents just came with the picture that we will put at the entrance...you know those big ones with the pic of th couple?...yeah...I have one with Bayu!!!! EEEEEEE...hehheeh...it's so nice...
Okay I'm going to go stare and admire it right now.
17 December 2008
Miss Lerie
Ray: Where are the dictionaries?
Miss Lerie: IN the shelf.
Ray: Isn't it ON the shelf?
Shivam: No, that's not right.
Miss Lerie: I'm not sure either.
Shivam: It's AT the shelf.
(Krik Krik)
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Miss Lerie: A, say something.
A: Something
Miss Lerie: Are your parents here?
A: Yes.
Miss Lerie: Where are they?
A: (Points to the crowd)
Miss Lerie: What are they wearing?
A: Clothes
Miss Lerie: A, I'm leaving to Singapore. I won't come back.
A: (Looks confused)
Miss Lerie: I won't teach here anymore.
A: So, Miss Lerie will be the old teacher.
Miss Lerie:.....that's right.
Miss Lerie: I'm going to be staying in Singapore.
A: How long will you be in Singapore?
Miss Lerie: Forever.
A: (Very had very real laughter) HAHAHAHHAHAAH.
Kids with ASD take things very literally. Their innocence, purity and honesty is so amazing. I never cease to learn from them and they are so fun to be with.
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G to T: You wanna fight?? I'll see you after 7Eleven closes.
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Miss Lerie: This is my first and last Christmas Production with you guys.
T: Don't worry Miss Lerie. We'll make you proud.
...And they did.
Miss Lerie: IN the shelf.
Ray: Isn't it ON the shelf?
Shivam: No, that's not right.
Miss Lerie: I'm not sure either.
Shivam: It's AT the shelf.
(Krik Krik)
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Miss Lerie: A, say something.
A: Something
Miss Lerie: Are your parents here?
A: Yes.
Miss Lerie: Where are they?
A: (Points to the crowd)
Miss Lerie: What are they wearing?
A: Clothes
Miss Lerie: A, I'm leaving to Singapore. I won't come back.
A: (Looks confused)
Miss Lerie: I won't teach here anymore.
A: So, Miss Lerie will be the old teacher.
Miss Lerie:.....that's right.
Miss Lerie: I'm going to be staying in Singapore.
A: How long will you be in Singapore?
Miss Lerie: Forever.
A: (Very had very real laughter) HAHAHAHHAHAAH.
Kids with ASD take things very literally. Their innocence, purity and honesty is so amazing. I never cease to learn from them and they are so fun to be with.
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G to T: You wanna fight?? I'll see you after 7Eleven closes.
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Miss Lerie: This is my first and last Christmas Production with you guys.
T: Don't worry Miss Lerie. We'll make you proud.
...And they did.
16 December 2008
Errands
4 days and some hours left. This is what my schedule for this week looks like...(roughly)...
Tuesday
-Check up at Samitivej (check)
-Buy Candy Cane for Hazel (check)
-Eat at home (check)
-Blow dry hair (check)
-Makeup Trial (Cancelled)
-Pick up Bayu's Suit (Check)
-Pack Candies (Tomorrow!)
Wednesday
-Visit Charinel
-Platinum
-Picture Taking Session
-Bayu's party
-Thank You gifts
Thursday
-Manicure,pedicure
-Pick up passport
Things left to buy or do:
-Flower girl dress
-Ellen's dress
-DVD Karaoke
-Pink bags
-Jelly beans??
-Box for rings
-TQ gifts
-Housing
-Vans
-Program
-Final list of things that I need to bring from BKK to MC
-Photograph list
-RSVPs
Today on our way to pick up Bayu's suit we ate at this Korean restaurant between NaNa and Asok BTS station. There was soooooooo much food plus a drink each and it cost us only 620 baht. We had so much left over cuz we were stuffed. What we ordered could've fed 4-5 ppl...next time..next time...It was yummmmmmyyy...
Tuesday
-Check up at Samitivej (check)
-Buy Candy Cane for Hazel (check)
-Eat at home (check)
-Blow dry hair (check)
-Makeup Trial (Cancelled)
-Pick up Bayu's Suit (Check)
-Pack Candies (Tomorrow!)
Wednesday
-Visit Charinel
-Platinum
-Picture Taking Session
-Bayu's party
-Thank You gifts
Thursday
-Manicure,pedicure
-Pick up passport
Things left to buy or do:
-Flower girl dress
-Ellen's dress
-DVD Karaoke
-Pink bags
-Jelly beans??
-Box for rings
-TQ gifts
-Housing
-Vans
-Program
-Final list of things that I need to bring from BKK to MC
-Photograph list
-RSVPs
Today on our way to pick up Bayu's suit we ate at this Korean restaurant between NaNa and Asok BTS station. There was soooooooo much food plus a drink each and it cost us only 620 baht. We had so much left over cuz we were stuffed. What we ordered could've fed 4-5 ppl...next time..next time...It was yummmmmmyyy...
My Favorite Poem
This is a poem I had to memorize as an assignment in Grade 8. I have never forgotten this poem until this very day. It is one of my favorite poems. I don't know why. Perhaps because I always wondered if I ever would take the road less taken.
The Road NotTaken by Robert Frost
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
and sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveller, long I stood
and looked down one as far as I could
to where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
and having perhaps the better claim
because it was grassy and wanted wear;
though as for that, the passing there
had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
in leaves no feet had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less travelled by,
and that has made all the difference
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
and sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveller, long I stood
and looked down one as far as I could
to where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
and having perhaps the better claim
because it was grassy and wanted wear;
though as for that, the passing there
had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
in leaves no feet had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less travelled by,
and that has made all the difference
Peace Out
I picked Bayu up today with my parents and Hazel. I was happy to see him and his parents too. Bayu and I rode home in 1 taxi and on the way there I told him about how I was feeling. He listened and we talked about it so I feel good about that.
Once we got home we ate food that my mom and auntie prepared. We relaxed, chatted and watched heroes. After that Hazel, Bayu and I went to Ambassador Hotel at Nana to make Bayu's suite. Next, we went to MBK and bought Bayu's shoes, tie, sandals, unders and sandals. I also bought a yummy Thai dessert that is only sold and tastes that good there at MBK.
Once we got home Bayu met but with Ben and Ben and then Dolly and Jyn and Laura came over to my house and we prepared the souveneir packages. It was fun to be together and to see Jyn again. I can feel the wedding festivities coming on. There is a glimpse of hope that this Sunday could be a happy day for me after all. We were laughing that people might misunderstand that the wedding is a funeral because there'll be so many of us crying! Haha.
See! One negative blog and now a happy blog. Well, you guys know more about me and my mood swings now. Thanks for your support and understanding though. I couldn't just go to sleep and leave today with that last post on my blog.
So yes, you guys, all is well with my soul.
Once we got home we ate food that my mom and auntie prepared. We relaxed, chatted and watched heroes. After that Hazel, Bayu and I went to Ambassador Hotel at Nana to make Bayu's suite. Next, we went to MBK and bought Bayu's shoes, tie, sandals, unders and sandals. I also bought a yummy Thai dessert that is only sold and tastes that good there at MBK.
Once we got home Bayu met but with Ben and Ben and then Dolly and Jyn and Laura came over to my house and we prepared the souveneir packages. It was fun to be together and to see Jyn again. I can feel the wedding festivities coming on. There is a glimpse of hope that this Sunday could be a happy day for me after all. We were laughing that people might misunderstand that the wedding is a funeral because there'll be so many of us crying! Haha.
See! One negative blog and now a happy blog. Well, you guys know more about me and my mood swings now. Thanks for your support and understanding though. I couldn't just go to sleep and leave today with that last post on my blog.
So yes, you guys, all is well with my soul.
15 December 2008
Questions & Answers that come later
This morning I woke up around 5.30ish because and got up to the toilet at around 6ish. That's what I usually do during my normal day of work. But since Friday was the last day of work I'm free from work until God gives me one.
I thought I'd stay awake but I went back to bed and fell asleep until 8. I got up went on fb, read my emails and your guys's blogs. I got sleepy and went back to sleep and got up just now at around 10.30ish.
Bayu and his parents are arriving at around 2pm. Hazel will drive there but she can leave work at 2.30. I've been trying to do anything to let time pass by quickly until 2 comes. I wanna see him. It's been 4months since we last saw each other and I just want to lay eyes on the man I'm going to marry and spend the rest of my life with. I just want to be reminded about why I'm getting married and making some drastic changes in my life.
I've still got lots of stuff to do. In a way I'm glad my wedding preparation didn't come so easily so that I won't take it for granted and it will be really precious to me. I can't imagine having to prepare for a wedding over again. I'd just die. It's too much work and stress! Haha.
Anyways, I must confess that lately when people ask me how I feel that my wedding is so close or that they are excited for me...well, I feel like they are even more excited than I am! Right now I'm not even thinking about the wedding day. I'm actually thinking about the day I'll be leaving, which if everything goes according to plan, would be next Friday. I'm thinking how can I enjoy my day when I'll be leaving?...I know, so negative of me.
Am I ready to leave? Am I ready to be away from my family whom I am so close with when I could actually have chosen to be with them even a few more years? I can leave Thailand, I can leave my job and my students and the church and all the people I know but thinking about leaving my family is just the hardest thing for me.
Sonya told me on Sunday before she left the Renie told her that his wedding day was the happiest day of his life. Will my wedding day be the happiest day of my life??? I just feel so bad having these thoughts and feelings so close to my wedding day.
Another thing is that these pills that the doctor gave me for birth control hasn't affected my weight or improved my pimples but I think it has made my emotions go down into the depression zone. I feel like my students at work who need medication which helps them to actually like somebody they hated when they weren't on that medication!
What else can I let loose on this post about how I'm feeling?
Am I really ready?
Will I be a good wife?
P.S. With my emotions going up and down... don't be surprised if my next post is all about how excited I am and how sure I am about the decisions I've made. =)
I feel so bipolar. I really feel for my students. I hope I get a job in special education in Singapore.
I thought I'd stay awake but I went back to bed and fell asleep until 8. I got up went on fb, read my emails and your guys's blogs. I got sleepy and went back to sleep and got up just now at around 10.30ish.
Bayu and his parents are arriving at around 2pm. Hazel will drive there but she can leave work at 2.30. I've been trying to do anything to let time pass by quickly until 2 comes. I wanna see him. It's been 4months since we last saw each other and I just want to lay eyes on the man I'm going to marry and spend the rest of my life with. I just want to be reminded about why I'm getting married and making some drastic changes in my life.
I've still got lots of stuff to do. In a way I'm glad my wedding preparation didn't come so easily so that I won't take it for granted and it will be really precious to me. I can't imagine having to prepare for a wedding over again. I'd just die. It's too much work and stress! Haha.
Anyways, I must confess that lately when people ask me how I feel that my wedding is so close or that they are excited for me...well, I feel like they are even more excited than I am! Right now I'm not even thinking about the wedding day. I'm actually thinking about the day I'll be leaving, which if everything goes according to plan, would be next Friday. I'm thinking how can I enjoy my day when I'll be leaving?...I know, so negative of me.
Am I ready to leave? Am I ready to be away from my family whom I am so close with when I could actually have chosen to be with them even a few more years? I can leave Thailand, I can leave my job and my students and the church and all the people I know but thinking about leaving my family is just the hardest thing for me.
Sonya told me on Sunday before she left the Renie told her that his wedding day was the happiest day of his life. Will my wedding day be the happiest day of my life??? I just feel so bad having these thoughts and feelings so close to my wedding day.
Another thing is that these pills that the doctor gave me for birth control hasn't affected my weight or improved my pimples but I think it has made my emotions go down into the depression zone. I feel like my students at work who need medication which helps them to actually like somebody they hated when they weren't on that medication!
What else can I let loose on this post about how I'm feeling?
Am I really ready?
Will I be a good wife?
P.S. With my emotions going up and down... don't be surprised if my next post is all about how excited I am and how sure I am about the decisions I've made. =)
I feel so bipolar. I really feel for my students. I hope I get a job in special education in Singapore.
14 December 2008
Pink&Black
I prayed: God please give me a sign, any sign, that you still want me to go through with everything...
Who would've thought it would come in the form of...
Girlfriends!
P.S. Dolly was taking the picture.
Who would've thought it would come in the form of...
Girlfriends!
P.S. Dolly was taking the picture.
13 December 2008
I typed in worship songs and found this...
I found some touching songs. The 2 songs I'll mention reminds me of 2 people I know.
This is the first song - Casting Crowns: Does Anybody Hear Her?
The second song has wonderful words and meanings. It reminds me of a friend who has gone through so much recently (maybe the past year and more...). I don't know if this was her prayer but I know that she's drawn closer to God because of what she's been through.
Can anybody really pray for God to bring the rain? On the humorous side, knowing God, I don't think I dare ask him to bring the rain because I know he will!! =)
Mercy Me: Bring the Rain
I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that
I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings
You glory And I know there'll
be days When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to
praise You Jesus, bring the rain
I am yours regardless of the clouds that may
loom above because you are much greater than
my pain you who made a way for me suffering
your destiny so tell me whats a little rain
[1st Chorus]
Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
is the lord God almighty
is the lord God almighty
I'm forever singing
[2nd Chorus 2x]
everybody singing
Holy holy holy
you are holy
you are holy
[2nd Chorus 2x]
This is the first song - Casting Crowns: Does Anybody Hear Her?
The second song has wonderful words and meanings. It reminds me of a friend who has gone through so much recently (maybe the past year and more...). I don't know if this was her prayer but I know that she's drawn closer to God because of what she's been through.
Can anybody really pray for God to bring the rain? On the humorous side, knowing God, I don't think I dare ask him to bring the rain because I know he will!! =)
Mercy Me: Bring the Rain
I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that
I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings
You glory And I know there'll
be days When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to
praise You Jesus, bring the rain
I am yours regardless of the clouds that may
loom above because you are much greater than
my pain you who made a way for me suffering
your destiny so tell me whats a little rain
[1st Chorus]
Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
is the lord God almighty
is the lord God almighty
I'm forever singing
[2nd Chorus 2x]
everybody singing
Holy holy holy
you are holy
you are holy
[2nd Chorus 2x]
Tossing & Turning
This is me...the bride-to-be one week before her wedding:
It's my 2nd night in a row to have butterflies in my stomach. I have a feeling this is going to go on every night until...who knows when!
I had dreams that we lost things during the wedding, we couldn't get things done on time and someone kept on reminding me over and over all the things that I haven't done yet!
The butterflies are so bad that I need to go to the toilet.
I lay awake missing my students, thinking about my sis-in-laws canceled flight (Thai Air Asia sux and so does the PAD), I realize this is my last Sabbath in Bangkok (if I do get my passport before the 26th), I can't help thinking about how my life will change.
I have to sit up to try to get rid of the butterflies.
Then I remind myself of that "revelation" I had where I knew God was telling me that this is my calling. I have chosen this path and I just need to trust in God. Believe that he can see what I can't see.
So I worship through youtube. Yes, remember that blog where I realized that those words I don't know what to say, those words that I can't seem to express to God...well, their all in song. I just click worship songs and listen to them. I let those words sink in and I even imagine I'm worshiping at NS. =) I've listened to Breath of Heaven, Trading My Sorrows and now I'm listening to God of Wonders.
In moments like these there is no one better to turn to than God.
+++Tonight is my bachelorette. I'm going to SML. I hope I meet my childhood friend today(Shane). Jyn is coming tomorrow.
It's my 2nd night in a row to have butterflies in my stomach. I have a feeling this is going to go on every night until...who knows when!
I had dreams that we lost things during the wedding, we couldn't get things done on time and someone kept on reminding me over and over all the things that I haven't done yet!
The butterflies are so bad that I need to go to the toilet.
I lay awake missing my students, thinking about my sis-in-laws canceled flight (Thai Air Asia sux and so does the PAD), I realize this is my last Sabbath in Bangkok (if I do get my passport before the 26th), I can't help thinking about how my life will change.
I have to sit up to try to get rid of the butterflies.
Then I remind myself of that "revelation" I had where I knew God was telling me that this is my calling. I have chosen this path and I just need to trust in God. Believe that he can see what I can't see.
So I worship through youtube. Yes, remember that blog where I realized that those words I don't know what to say, those words that I can't seem to express to God...well, their all in song. I just click worship songs and listen to them. I let those words sink in and I even imagine I'm worshiping at NS. =) I've listened to Breath of Heaven, Trading My Sorrows and now I'm listening to God of Wonders.
In moments like these there is no one better to turn to than God.
+++Tonight is my bachelorette. I'm going to SML. I hope I meet my childhood friend today(Shane). Jyn is coming tomorrow.
12 December 2008
It's Time
I could hardly sleep last night.
It was probably because of all the food I ate during the day.
But it was also because I was having stomach butterflies.
Today is my last day at The Village (work).
It's that dreaded feeling that I'll be saying good bye to the people and children I have come to love so much.
I will always think of, I will always miss, I will always remember...my little monsters. =)
I hope and pray that wherever my next destination is that I will meet people as lovely as those I have come to know at The Village.
It was probably because of all the food I ate during the day.
But it was also because I was having stomach butterflies.
Today is my last day at The Village (work).
It's that dreaded feeling that I'll be saying good bye to the people and children I have come to love so much.
I will always think of, I will always miss, I will always remember...my little monsters. =)
I hope and pray that wherever my next destination is that I will meet people as lovely as those I have come to know at The Village.
11 December 2008
I feel so special
I didn't tell you guys about how The Village's Christmas Production went. Well, it was super hectic but it was a success. It was a wonderful night with my kids and being able to meet their parents and siblings. I was so proud of them because they did so their parts so well. They're special kids and they did a really excellent job. I was backstage for most of it but the reaction from the audience was really good. Funny huh? After coaching them for months I wasn't even able to see them for real on the day! Haha. It was also nice to hear some parents say their kids talk about me. Hahah in a good way of course.
Today is the day before the last day of school. Almost every class had their own pizza party celebrations. Early in the morning I got a gift of chocolate from my student Madi. A few minutes later Puff came in with a Jim Thompson scarf for me. A little while later Azumi gave me a present too. There was a note and some really cute stuff. At 11.30 I had a pizza and S&P cake party with my drama class students. I ate 2 slice of pizza and a slice of cake.
I went back to my classroom at 12.00 and tada!! My kids had planned a surprise party for me! There on the table was 3 boxes of pizza , 2 bottles of coke, and a huge swensens ice cream cake! They presented me with a card they made themselves and a nicely wrapped bar of soap. So sweeet! I ate another 2 slices of pizza and a slice of that delicious ice cream cake.
Later in the afternoon we had a staff Christmas party. We all helped to prepare the food. We had Indian, Mexican, Italian, French Thai and BBQ. There was beer, wine, soft drinks and gift exchange as well. I got a water kettle and my boss gave me a One Healthy Habit Mangosteen. We also had dancing and musical chair. It was another fun Village party as usual. I'll really miss these parties and people.
I hope I meet nice people like I met at The Village whereve I may be after this.
On my way back home I was already crying in my heart. By tomorrow lunch time I'll be saying goodbye to everyone.
Today is the day before the last day of school. Almost every class had their own pizza party celebrations. Early in the morning I got a gift of chocolate from my student Madi. A few minutes later Puff came in with a Jim Thompson scarf for me. A little while later Azumi gave me a present too. There was a note and some really cute stuff. At 11.30 I had a pizza and S&P cake party with my drama class students. I ate 2 slice of pizza and a slice of cake.
I went back to my classroom at 12.00 and tada!! My kids had planned a surprise party for me! There on the table was 3 boxes of pizza , 2 bottles of coke, and a huge swensens ice cream cake! They presented me with a card they made themselves and a nicely wrapped bar of soap. So sweeet! I ate another 2 slices of pizza and a slice of that delicious ice cream cake.
Later in the afternoon we had a staff Christmas party. We all helped to prepare the food. We had Indian, Mexican, Italian, French Thai and BBQ. There was beer, wine, soft drinks and gift exchange as well. I got a water kettle and my boss gave me a One Healthy Habit Mangosteen. We also had dancing and musical chair. It was another fun Village party as usual. I'll really miss these parties and people.
I hope I meet nice people like I met at The Village whereve I may be after this.
On my way back home I was already crying in my heart. By tomorrow lunch time I'll be saying goodbye to everyone.
10 December 2008
Breath of Heaven- Mary's Song (Amy Grant)
I have traveled
Many moonless night
Cold and Weary
With a babe inside
And I wonder
What I've done
Holy Father
You have come
Chosen me now
To carry your son
I am waiting
in a silent prayer
I am frightened
by the load i bear
In a world as cold as stone
Must I walk this path alone
Be with me now
Be with me now
[chorus:]
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Breath of Heaven
Hold me together
Be forever near me
Breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven
Lighten my darkness
Pour over me, your holyness
For your holy Breath of Heaven
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Do you wonder
As you watch my face
If a wiser one, should of had my place
But I offer-all I am
For the mercy-of your plan
Help me be strong
Help me be
Help me
[chorus]
Many moonless night
Cold and Weary
With a babe inside
And I wonder
What I've done
Holy Father
You have come
Chosen me now
To carry your son
I am waiting
in a silent prayer
I am frightened
by the load i bear
In a world as cold as stone
Must I walk this path alone
Be with me now
Be with me now
[chorus:]
-----------------------------------
Breath of Heaven
Hold me together
Be forever near me
Breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven
Lighten my darkness
Pour over me, your holyness
For your holy Breath of Heaven
-----------------------------------
Do you wonder
As you watch my face
If a wiser one, should of had my place
But I offer-all I am
For the mercy-of your plan
Help me be strong
Help me be
Help me
[chorus]
09 December 2008
Ready!
I've been talking since forever about the Christmas production. It's finally going to happen today in just a few hours. We had our final, full, run through, dress rehearsal and now the kids are on their way home. Yep, we have half day of school today, holiday tomorrow, and then half day on Friday. Practice went well and I'm really happy about that. Me being backstage wasn't so hectic as the past few times. I'm saying bye to one of my students today because he's leaving early for his break. Some of the kids know I'm leaving while others don't understand when I tell them I'm leaving. They're so sweet. I know in their own way they'll still remember me as I'll always remember and miss them.
Even though I'll be busy, I'm still looking forward to the program. All classes will be performing something and after that there'll be food and then raffle draw! There are so many cool prizes. Basically the parents sponsor, donate, give stuff that will be prizes for the raffle draw. I think the raffle draw is for 2 in Sofitel. One of my students dad is th manager or owner or something. Ooohhh..I do hope I get something! I bought 100 baht worth of tickets = 5 tickets. The last raffle draw I ever joined was at MC and I got a broom! Heheh....
I'll also get to meet my students friends, families, parets, siblings. The hand christmas true is fully decorated the mango trees are adorned with light. The stage is done....we're ready!
Okay the kids (whose homes are too far and will be staying for the rest of the afternoon until the program) are here in the ICT room. We're gonna watch Open Season 2.
Even though I'll be busy, I'm still looking forward to the program. All classes will be performing something and after that there'll be food and then raffle draw! There are so many cool prizes. Basically the parents sponsor, donate, give stuff that will be prizes for the raffle draw. I think the raffle draw is for 2 in Sofitel. One of my students dad is th manager or owner or something. Ooohhh..I do hope I get something! I bought 100 baht worth of tickets = 5 tickets. The last raffle draw I ever joined was at MC and I got a broom! Heheh....
I'll also get to meet my students friends, families, parets, siblings. The hand christmas true is fully decorated the mango trees are adorned with light. The stage is done....we're ready!
Okay the kids (whose homes are too far and will be staying for the rest of the afternoon until the program) are here in the ICT room. We're gonna watch Open Season 2.
08 December 2008
T_T I'm in a state of wanna-be-bipolar =)
Why do our eyes get red and swollen when we cry?
Why is it so hard to stop yourself from crying once the tears escape?
Why does our nose run and get blocked?
Why can't I find the water pump that is pumping the tears out of my eyes so that I can turn it off?
Why does it hurt to cry?
Why is it so hard to forgive?
Would you treat people the way you do if you could see how they suffer when you're not looking?
Why does ice help to get rid of a swollen eye?
Why does sleep come easily to some but harder to others?
Why do words hurt more than sticks and stones?
Why can one comment make you or break you?
Have you heard the song "No Goodbyes" by Shimona?
I've turned off the faucet. Please don't turn it on again.
Why is it so hard to stop yourself from crying once the tears escape?
Why does our nose run and get blocked?
Why can't I find the water pump that is pumping the tears out of my eyes so that I can turn it off?
Why does it hurt to cry?
Why is it so hard to forgive?
Would you treat people the way you do if you could see how they suffer when you're not looking?
Why does ice help to get rid of a swollen eye?
Why does sleep come easily to some but harder to others?
Why do words hurt more than sticks and stones?
Why can one comment make you or break you?
Have you heard the song "No Goodbyes" by Shimona?
I've turned off the faucet. Please don't turn it on again.
=)
Hey people of the world what's up??????????
What????????????
You guys I'm so tired and exhausted. Today I was like a headless chicken preparing for the Christmas Production.
I'm just happy for the few people here and there of offer to help me. It's such a relief to get some help. I'm so thankful for them.
For me I look fine outside but sometimes it feels like its piling up inside of me and it just might burst. But I'm glad to still have my head cool. I can actually go through this and be positive and smile and humm to myself.
On my own (with God's help) I'm actually surviving so well compared to previous times when I'm under pressure and have lots of expectations to meet up to.
Tomorrow is judgment day! Hahhaa...nahhhh...I'm excited but I know I"ll be exhausted by the time tomorrow night comes. But I can rest my head on Wednesday on our holiday.
I know my students are going to make me proud. That's what they told me.
Looking forward to it...my strength will come from somewhere deep with in.
What????????????
You guys I'm so tired and exhausted. Today I was like a headless chicken preparing for the Christmas Production.
I'm just happy for the few people here and there of offer to help me. It's such a relief to get some help. I'm so thankful for them.
For me I look fine outside but sometimes it feels like its piling up inside of me and it just might burst. But I'm glad to still have my head cool. I can actually go through this and be positive and smile and humm to myself.
On my own (with God's help) I'm actually surviving so well compared to previous times when I'm under pressure and have lots of expectations to meet up to.
Tomorrow is judgment day! Hahhaa...nahhhh...I'm excited but I know I"ll be exhausted by the time tomorrow night comes. But I can rest my head on Wednesday on our holiday.
I know my students are going to make me proud. That's what they told me.
Looking forward to it...my strength will come from somewhere deep with in.
06 December 2008
05 December 2008
Family Road Trip
It was unusually traffic because of the Holiday and long weekend. It too us 3.5 hours to reach Muaklek instead of the usual 2. The moment we got there we ate at Krua Nong Pen. It's a Thai restaurant with individual "huts" you can sit in. It's located near the intersection leading to MC. We were happy to feast after being stuck in traffic.I'm glad Dad (and Mom and Haze and I =) ) enjoyed his food. We had 2 plates of Som tum (Papaya Salad), Fish with sour mango salad (Pla Chon Yum Mamuang), friend chicken and sticky rice...yummmmmm... There were alot of people there but we came a lfew minutes earlier than the others so we got our food really quick.
Right at the entrance of the restaurant there's a sign pointing to our destination...belove MC.
This is the "Wedding Committee" (Hazel, Daron, Renie, Roch, Pheap, ONya, Dr. Fanwar, A. Sheila). We met to discuss and finalize some stuff. It was a good meeting and I'm really happy about it. We laughed alot.
I got to meet up with Roch (in this pic she took of herself on MY phone), Pheap and Onya and catch up and hang out with them. So glad for that. I'm really excited I'll be seeing them against next week because they'll be coming over for the bachelorette!
We sent Pheap to the dorm and we stopped for a while to get some fresh air before we headed back out of the campus. Here's my lovely family and our beloved car that has brought us so far.
My parents and I!
We wanted to go to the Fashion Outlet and Chokchai Farm/Steakhouse but when we turned on the road it was sooooooooooooo traffic we just turned left and dropped at market at the side of the road. We bought some curry puffs, grape juice and beef. We headed back to Bkk and then we bought some groceries from The Mall Bangkapi, ate and now I'm home. I'm so tired but I really loved spending time with my parents and sister today.
Right at the entrance of the restaurant there's a sign pointing to our destination...belove MC.
This is the "Wedding Committee" (Hazel, Daron, Renie, Roch, Pheap, ONya, Dr. Fanwar, A. Sheila). We met to discuss and finalize some stuff. It was a good meeting and I'm really happy about it. We laughed alot.
I got to meet up with Roch (in this pic she took of herself on MY phone), Pheap and Onya and catch up and hang out with them. So glad for that. I'm really excited I'll be seeing them against next week because they'll be coming over for the bachelorette!
We sent Pheap to the dorm and we stopped for a while to get some fresh air before we headed back out of the campus. Here's my lovely family and our beloved car that has brought us so far.
My parents and I!
We wanted to go to the Fashion Outlet and Chokchai Farm/Steakhouse but when we turned on the road it was sooooooooooooo traffic we just turned left and dropped at market at the side of the road. We bought some curry puffs, grape juice and beef. We headed back to Bkk and then we bought some groceries from The Mall Bangkapi, ate and now I'm home. I'm so tired but I really loved spending time with my parents and sister today.
Dec.5 is Father's Day!
Yep in Thailand today it is Father's Day Because His Majesty the King Bhumibol Adulyadej has turned 81.
Happy Birthday King of Thailand!!
Happy Father's Day Dad!!!
Today I'm shooting 2 birds at one time =)
My family and I are going to Mission College to meet with others in the "Wedding Committee" and finalize most things.
We'll be there for a while and then my family and I will be driving around in that area to maybe visit sunflower fields and visit Chokchai Farm and Steakhouse. That is our Father's Day celebration.
Well, you guys another week has come and gone.
After this week there's 2 more weeks until that long awaited day.
The Monday after this coming Monday I'll be picking Bayu and his parents up at the airport. I"m so excited to see all of them.
Jyn is coming on the 14th all prepared to be my "slave" haha and my bachelorette is next Saturday the 13th too.
Good news last night was that Tiger Airways emailed Bayu and confirmed that all flights will be flying as scheduled on the 15th. Thank you God!
Happy Birthday King of Thailand!!
Happy Father's Day Dad!!!
Today I'm shooting 2 birds at one time =)
My family and I are going to Mission College to meet with others in the "Wedding Committee" and finalize most things.
We'll be there for a while and then my family and I will be driving around in that area to maybe visit sunflower fields and visit Chokchai Farm and Steakhouse. That is our Father's Day celebration.
Well, you guys another week has come and gone.
After this week there's 2 more weeks until that long awaited day.
The Monday after this coming Monday I'll be picking Bayu and his parents up at the airport. I"m so excited to see all of them.
Jyn is coming on the 14th all prepared to be my "slave" haha and my bachelorette is next Saturday the 13th too.
Good news last night was that Tiger Airways emailed Bayu and confirmed that all flights will be flying as scheduled on the 15th. Thank you God!
03 December 2008
Wonderings
I have some pix to post up...I better do it before they accidentally get deleted again!
I ate Lebanese food at Dolls celebration last night...I totally forgot to take pictures coz I was starving!
I have some pictures of when my family and I ate at Fuji, a Japanese restaurant here in Thailand so http://kengot.blogspot.com/ from Japan can tell me how different it is from the real Japanese food! Hahhaha...
Oh and I'm wondering how those MVCA students (RJ, Nicky, Dominic) are doing? Are they still alive? Have they dug holes for their "unwanted treasures" yet? Those are serious camps dude! My cousin in The Philippines said those kinds of camps you can't use tissue paper...only leaves! Wonder if they had to do it too =P
I ate Lebanese food at Dolls celebration last night...I totally forgot to take pictures coz I was starving!
I have some pictures of when my family and I ate at Fuji, a Japanese restaurant here in Thailand so http://kengot.blogspot.com/ from Japan can tell me how different it is from the real Japanese food! Hahhaha...
Oh and I'm wondering how those MVCA students (RJ, Nicky, Dominic) are doing? Are they still alive? Have they dug holes for their "unwanted treasures" yet? Those are serious camps dude! My cousin in The Philippines said those kinds of camps you can't use tissue paper...only leaves! Wonder if they had to do it too =P
02 December 2008
Good News
Bayu's vacation is extended.
So we'll be spending Christmas here and spending a Liiiiiiiiiitle more time with my friends and family from abroad.
The original plan was that we'll leave on the 23rd now we'll be leaving on the 26th!
=)
So we'll be spending Christmas here and spending a Liiiiiiiiiitle more time with my friends and family from abroad.
The original plan was that we'll leave on the 23rd now we'll be leaving on the 26th!
=)
01 December 2008
A Different Message
The suspense of how this whole situation in Thailand is killing me. Will it be violent or not? Will people die? Can it really end peacefully?
Then that thing that happened last night. Now any little commotion and I'm like "What's that?! What now??"
On my way back home on the bus...Yellow signs, megaphone...oh no...are the PAD trying to recruit more people?
Then I saw what it said on the yellow sign. It was in Thai in biiiig fonts. "Jesus can save you. Repent now...etc."
First reaction *Phew* it has nothing to do with the PAD
Second reaction *Wow* I got teary eyed just thinking how Thai people are now proclaiming the message of Jesus in public...in this Buddhist country.
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On the way back home I passed through the soi that had the explosion. My soi (or street) is 37 and the one with the explosion was 39. The back gate to my compound is on soi 39. I tried to see any signs of the bomb or whatever but none. So I asked the guard of the back gate where the bomb went off. It was closer than I thought or imagined.
At the back gate of my compound across the small road of the soi is an empty field or lot. Next to that lot is a house. Apparently, some people through the bomb (or whatever) over the gate of that house into the person's yard. 2 cars were destroyed. That 's what the guard told me. If they had gotten the wrong instructions and threw it across the opposite gate that would be my compound already! Specifically BAIS...
Then that thing that happened last night. Now any little commotion and I'm like "What's that?! What now??"
On my way back home on the bus...Yellow signs, megaphone...oh no...are the PAD trying to recruit more people?
Then I saw what it said on the yellow sign. It was in Thai in biiiig fonts. "Jesus can save you. Repent now...etc."
First reaction *Phew* it has nothing to do with the PAD
Second reaction *Wow* I got teary eyed just thinking how Thai people are now proclaiming the message of Jesus in public...in this Buddhist country.
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On the way back home I passed through the soi that had the explosion. My soi (or street) is 37 and the one with the explosion was 39. The back gate to my compound is on soi 39. I tried to see any signs of the bomb or whatever but none. So I asked the guard of the back gate where the bomb went off. It was closer than I thought or imagined.
At the back gate of my compound across the small road of the soi is an empty field or lot. Next to that lot is a house. Apparently, some people through the bomb (or whatever) over the gate of that house into the person's yard. 2 cars were destroyed. That 's what the guard told me. If they had gotten the wrong instructions and threw it across the opposite gate that would be my compound already! Specifically BAIS...
That Loud Sound Last Night
Once in a while the transformer (those containers hanging on the telephone post with all the electrical wires) in the soi I live in would have some sort of short circuit and explode. If you are there to see it it either catches fire or has lots of sparks then goes away. The electricity around that area (including my house) will also go off. It happens quite often and becomes pretty normal. It usually happens during the day or evening though.
But last night, around 3 am I heard a loud bang or explosion. I practically jumped out of my skin. I thought it was another transformer explosion. But there was something different about the sound. I never usually feel scared of that sound. I thought it was just because it was so early in the morning and with all the unrest in Bangkok it just made me a little uneasy and jumpy. I also couldn't confirm if it really was the transformer because the fan in my room was off anyway so I couldn't tel if the electricity went out. I lay there with my eyes wide open waiting to hear screams or sirens or some commotion but there was nothing. So I lulled myself to sleep by repeating over and over that it was just the transformer.
While I was lying awake I was thinking of what it must be like to be in a real "war" situation or "terrorist" situation and I was like "I would be freaked out I'd probably faint and die!" So I was thankful I didn't hear sirens or any commotion and went to sleep.
This morning I was chatting with Hazel on gmail. She was telling me that the people in the office are all talking about the explosion last night. What was it? It was a grenade in one of the apartments in the soi next to the soi I live in. Mr. Edgar who lives in Unitech apartment and near where the grenade went off said that the whole building shook.
I was really freaked out when I heard that news. It was like the closest I've come to my nightmare and I didn't even know it! From what I know though it doesn't have to do with the whole PAD or whatever.
But still...Welcome to Thailand...a grenade goes off and it's not even on the news. Just another topic to talk about. Haha..But what's new..I mean those transformers exploding regularly is nothing new either!
*Sigh*
But last night, around 3 am I heard a loud bang or explosion. I practically jumped out of my skin. I thought it was another transformer explosion. But there was something different about the sound. I never usually feel scared of that sound. I thought it was just because it was so early in the morning and with all the unrest in Bangkok it just made me a little uneasy and jumpy. I also couldn't confirm if it really was the transformer because the fan in my room was off anyway so I couldn't tel if the electricity went out. I lay there with my eyes wide open waiting to hear screams or sirens or some commotion but there was nothing. So I lulled myself to sleep by repeating over and over that it was just the transformer.
While I was lying awake I was thinking of what it must be like to be in a real "war" situation or "terrorist" situation and I was like "I would be freaked out I'd probably faint and die!" So I was thankful I didn't hear sirens or any commotion and went to sleep.
This morning I was chatting with Hazel on gmail. She was telling me that the people in the office are all talking about the explosion last night. What was it? It was a grenade in one of the apartments in the soi next to the soi I live in. Mr. Edgar who lives in Unitech apartment and near where the grenade went off said that the whole building shook.
I was really freaked out when I heard that news. It was like the closest I've come to my nightmare and I didn't even know it! From what I know though it doesn't have to do with the whole PAD or whatever.
But still...Welcome to Thailand...a grenade goes off and it's not even on the news. Just another topic to talk about. Haha..But what's new..I mean those transformers exploding regularly is nothing new either!
*Sigh*
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